MiXeD nUtS!

At long last! I’m here again blogging my heart and mind away, hehe. It’s been a while since I’ve written here huh. I can’t say I’ve really missed writing since I’m not a writing-kind of person, but I could say because of past events, I’m quite addicted now in blogging. My friends even told me that I’m making this my diary already. But isn’t that the main reason why blogs came into being? To be our online diary? Maybe the only difference is that blogs like this one I have are very public. There are so many reasons why people set up their blogs, well like I’ve said before, for me it’s therapeutic. It helps me release stress brought about by emotional burdens. And so far so good! I’m starting to confront life again, head on. I’ve accepted that when you love someone, you must be ready with all the consequences that might happen. It’s just unfortunate that mine did not prosper like I have planned or intended, but that’s life. For every door closed, there’s another one being opened for us. It’s just for us to decide whether we want to stand infront of that closed door forever, or move on and look for other doors being opened for us. Doors that may lead to better things and people who would eventually be more deserving of our attention. But as for me, I’ve already chosen to leave that closed door behind, and look for bigger and better doors.

What a week that was!  A lot of things happened, not necessarily about me, but also within our country and the world in general. There was this video scandal of Dr. Hayden Kho, the love interest of doctor to the stars, Dr. Vicki Belo, that really shook the country. Even Malacanan had already reacted on this! My take on this issue? Though I’m sympathetic to the girls in the videos (if they really don’t know they’re being videoed), I really can’t waste my precious time delving into this issue, since it doesn’t concern me in the first place. Besides, I believe that if more and more people patronize this issue, we’re just giving more reasons for others to profit from this unfortunate incident. So guys, let’s just leave this to the government agencies concerned, and move on. Remember there are more important issues to focus on. Issues that could literally change the course of our future and the country’s future in general. Yes, I’m pertaining to the Presidential elections next year.

I commend the COMELEC for making sure that elections next year would be fully automated. You know, I’m a firm believer of an automated election because for me, the faster the votes are casted, counted and canvassed, the lesser the time we give those evildoers to tinker the actual results of the election. It would mean that the people we would place in government, are the people who have our mandate. That would show the world that democracy really works and is very vibrant here in the Philippines. I also commend the different groups who would serve as watchdogs and guardians of our ballots. They are giving utmost service to us all, us ordinary citizens who for so many years have been taken advantage of by people greedy for power. Let’s do our share guys. In our own little ways, like just voicing our support for them would be a big morale boost for them.

Finally, the situation that we are most afraid of happening yet being anticipated has arrived. Influenza A(H1N1) has landed here in our country! Though it’s not an outbreak (yet), it’s just a little bit concerning that it’s already here. So guys, don’t forget to always wash your hands before and after eating, touching things being touched by others, and if you could help it, avoid crowded places. Remember, H1N1 is an airborne type of virus so it could easily be transferred from one person to another. Heed all government warnings, and also do our part in containing this virus and preventing this from being spread around by being hygienic.

Wow!  Different topics in just a single entry huh. I think I would like this kind of set-up, hehe.

Standby...

It’s been a long time since my last entry, ayayayay. Actually, this would only be a very short one too since I’m still consolidating my thoughts about different things that I want to write about. Let’s just say I’m having a li’l bit of situation called writers’ block so I opted to relax for a while from writing. But don’t worry guys, especially to those who are frequent visitors of my blog, this block’s just temporary and I’ll be writing again on Saturday bout ALOT of things that happened during this past week, so please stand by…

In My Life

Hi guys! Just want to post this… I know some of you would be somewhat surprised by the pictures below, but hold your horses! It’s just for movies guys so huwag seryosohin ha. I actually saw the pictures in philstar.com while reading Ricky Lo’s Funfare column, you know what? sobrang napanganga ko! Not because of the hug per se, na-amaze ako kasi super realistic nung dating nila. It’s like they’re so much in love with each other talaga. Just look at their faces  I predict this would become the biggest movie of the year, and I’ll definitely watch this 

I wonder what would JLC-Sarah fans would say on this…hmm…hehe 

Photos courtesy of Star Cinema and Philstar.com/Ricky Lo. No copyright infringement intended while posting these pictures.

Happiness is...

Hay…today is exactly the third month of you-know-what, and I thought I don’t need to write anything for today here in my blog since I’ve already told/written everything about that fateful day during my last entry. But I think it would be a disservice for me or even for those who are reading my blog entries if I won’t write something today, hehe. I know it sounds self-indulgent and so assuming of me but this is mine anyways so move on, hahaha!

I was ‘talking’ (Texting actually) to my bex Jaeleen earlier. We had discussions about our past loves, her present loveydovey, the different sweet gestures I would like my future beau would do for me which you-know-who didn’t do, etc. But our discussion ended with her wishing me strength to surpass the sadness I’m into right now, to be patient and just wait for happiness and love to come because true love waits.

But truly, what is happiness? Can it be measured by the amount of money you have in your pockets? Or the gifts that you are constantly showered with? Or the number of friends that you have? Can you find your happiness by loving another person actually? Or by hurting another? Or is it found within?

After all the things that I’ve experienced, especially in the recent past, I’ve learned that happiness is really a very vague concept. You can’t actually judge people as hypocrites if they say the more wealth they have, the happier they will be, because they might have experienced extreme poverty. Some people find happiness either through giving or receiving because they feel their importance by doing so. Some are happy when they are with another person and some are happy being alone. 

Fortunately and unfortunately, I’ve seen all these kinds of happiness, experienced some even. That’s why for me, though it is immeasurable most of the time, happiness is too costly. Not because of wealth or material things, but because some people could only compare happiness in relation to happiness of others. That to attain ultimate happiness, hurting others is inevitable. 

After all the bad events that happened, one of the very important lessons I’ve learned is not to rely on other people’s  happiness for you to be happy as well. Not because you don’t want to be happy, but because there are no assurances that all the things that you gave or the efforts that you did will be reciprocated or even be appreciated enough. That for you to be happy, you must be happy only for your own good. It may sound so selfish, but it’s reality.

“Reality Bites”

Suicide

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NopE! I’m not comtemplating that, definitely not, so don’t worry! Hahaha  I’m just thinking for an effective title and I think this would really get people’s attention so since you’re reading this right now, thank you for the concern, hehe.

To be honest, I planned to write this entry on Sunday, the 17th of May since it marks the 3rd month since my ex texted me and said we’re on the wrong track so we should call our ‘relationship’ off. I know, I know, you’ll think why still bother counting those days and spending too much time for that piece of crap, well, I can’t help it! Maybe because my ego was hurt since he was the one who dumped me and not the other way around? Nope, sorry not that since I loved him sincerely and ego was way out of my thinking back then. I think because up to this day, I still have so much questions why it happened. These questions are rhetorical in nature, questions that I know wouldn’t be answered directly or even wouldn’t receive answers at all.

Is it really that simple to just fall out of love while two days ago you’re both so much in love? That even though you’ve cemented that love with a kiss, you’re relationship just gaining momentum, and you’re already planning how to celebrate your 1st year anniversary when in fact your love was just 2 weeks old, then a couple of days after he’s abandoning you? Why me? Do I deserve this kind of hurt? Am I that bad a person? Why me being the guinea pig in the relationship? Why?

How do you determine if someone loves you or he’s just testing the waters, trying to know if he could venture in this kind of relationship? I just felt like a mouse being in love with an eagle actually. Pathetic me. Falling prey willingly to his predator. I know this comparison is somewhat unfair, but this is how I felt, how I feel even right up to this moment.

Yes it is easy to just say move on, or when you love somebody set him free, if he’s yours he’ll come back to you, if he doesn’t, he’s not yours at all (this is he’s new beau’s shoutout by the way). But you see, love is also selfish, it is because you depend some of your happiness on that love, and who’s the idiot that wants that happiness to cease or be taken away from him, right?

Like what a song says, ‘So many questions, but the answers are so few’, and I think I just have to resign myself to the fact that these questions wouldn’t be answered at once, or even at all. After writing all these, you might conclude that I still love that piece of crap…maybe…maybe no…and thinking all these is like really commiting suicide over and over again. I hope though that the next time I’m on the edge of that very high building, gearing up to jump off again, someone would hug me or hold my hands and pull me off from that edge, stopping me from doing that jump, making sure that I’m okay and eventually showing me that I don’t need that old crap anymore, that life is really beautiful, that living again is worth it, and loving again is more meaningful the next time around.

“Live the life. Love life. Love love.”

Pajama Day!

Today’s another special day in the office…because it’s I LOVE BED Day! Hehe, well, let me expound on this. Our company the InterContinental Hotels Group, and its chain of Hotels worldwide, has recently launched a promotional campaign called I Love BED wherein frequent guests of our hotels could win free nights stay in our different hotel brands (e.g. Holiday Inn, Crowne Plaza, Candlewood, etc.). As a show of support to this campaign, PHLRO-Philippine Reservations Office, declared this day as Pajama day! The Reservations Agents, and other departments including us, are encouraged to be in our Pajamas/sleepwears and those who would be selected wearing the  best sleepwear (how weird is that?) will win I LOVE BED Items (no complaints there, hehe). Our counterparts in the different parts of the world have already launched the same campaign and now, it’s the Philippines time to shine!

Oh, by the way, all of us will be given our cookies and milk later. Hope it’s Oreos… 

Turn the beat around!

It’s funny and amusing really how pinoys view life in general; that when something is already breaching the norms of seriousness, we tend to make it as hilarious as it can be, therefore making things light to carry and understand but still not losing the intended message. Why did I say this? Because that’s what happened to my blog entry yesterday, the one entitled “Overhaul.”

I told my team mates that I have a new blog entry and they should read it so I would know what they think about it. But since their curiousity has already been piqued, I have no choice but to forward it to their emails instead. After reading it, most of them expressed their positive reviews, but the most amusing reaction was when one of them transformed my blog entry into a declamation piece! Maybe he was so inspired with all the quotable quotes I have written there that we were laughing so hard when he delivered it. I didn’t know It could be delivered that way! Hahaha. But honestly, I really appreciate their reactions because they’ve shown me that for every bad thing that happens, there’s always a way for making it lighter and more manageable. That life is what you make of it. That you have the option of bearing all the heavy loads of the world and be miserable about it, or turn things around and make them your source of inspiration to strive for the best and eventually be happy. Well, I choose the latter 
By the way, Prism RL Team has a new motto : From the ashes, I rise!^©

Hahahaha!

Overhaul

After another heart-wrenching sequences of events yesterday, I thought it was deemed necessary to make an overhaul of my friendster account. And now, I would like to welcome you guys officially to my newly renovated friendster profile. An overhaul that I think was long overdue. This profile represents the new me, the new Mikee. The one who’s a fighter, but an intelligent fighter, a fighter with grace, fighting for his own dignity and self-esteem that was so much battered by blind love. 

I don’t hate love, I love the concept of love in fact, but now I’ll be cautious enough and wise enough to discern who is and who is not worthy of the love I could give openly. 

Like the wolf, I’ll be an intelligent fighter, a fighter whose experience is his teacher, a fighter who lurks first in the dark, planning his next steps, making sure that what he does, he does it with ease, assuring victory.

So to those who made the wrong move of hurting me, causing me pain, took advantage of my naivety and good faith, of my love I regrettably gave easily and freely, don’t be threatened, I dare say be afraid… BE VERY AFRAID, for I’ll make sure that when our paths cross again, you won’t forget that exact time and place, regretting causing me the hurt I’ve so long endured.

Now, finally, I’m happily releasing myself from the old ways, the old feelings, from the people in my past both far and definitely near, who in some ways have contributed to this overhaul.

 From the ashes, I rise

My Spag

Just had my friends visit me yesterday. As my post-birthday celeb, side-by-side with Mothers’ day, nagluto ako ng aking ipinagmamalaking spaghetti at bumili ako ng cake for my mom. Though nanakit ang right arm ko with the preparation and cooking proper, i think it was a success naman dahil box office ang spaghetti ko! Hahaha, sobrang natuwa naman ako at nagustuhan ng mga friends ko yung luto ko a, nakadalawa pa ng kuha, hehehe. Kaya I plan to cook again this coming June then I’ll bring it to Sta.Rosa so my friends there could also taste my famous spag. Naku, sana magustuhan din nila, the pressure is definitely on! Hahahaha!

Happy Momma's Day!

Sa lahat ng ina sa buong mundo, maligayang araw po ninyo. Nawa’y sa araw na ito ay maramdaman ninyo kung gaano namin ipinagpapasalamat sa Diyos na kayo ang aming naging ina. Salamat sa pagmamahal na walang hanggan at walang kapalit. Salamat sa pasensiya at pagtitiyaga sa katigasan ng aming mga ulo. Huwag sana kayong magsawa sa inyong pag-aaruga sa amin.